Ok not throwaway but oooook

Twice admitted, overdosed about four times within that period though. Mix of presc meds mostly anti-psychotics. First time my parents had rung an ambulance (from a diff city) because I wasn't picking up. Unfortunately they know not answering phone = awol. When I woke up a friend was there and took me home. Spoke to psych team and it was fine. I talk my way out pretty well and my diagnoses are all concise. Second time I'd drunkenly rung my mum to say goodbye. Ambulance was quick, so I was lucky. Was resuscitated in A and E then went to intensive care. I woke up with my parents there. Same psych team as last time so again I talked my way out.. not that they have the bed space to section! I was on waiting list for intensive outpatient therapy so they were happy with that plus my parents to keep an eye on me for a couple days. For a short period of time I was deep in regret (obv felt horribly selfish on my parents) but sadly that petered off and I'm just back to ravenous suicidality again. Aftermath resulted in liver damage, kidney damage and some heart problems.