thank you for posting; this really resonated with me. i was like is this person me?! the difference is i went from US to Pakistan, and due to my immense suffering, pain, culture shock, etc., i truly feel like i wasted more than 2.5 years of my precious energy, time, health, opportunities, etc. trying to survive here w/ my husband. being a tourist is just so vastly different than residing somewhere.

i know it's really hard to give up, but don't waste a second longer b/c sometimes it just won't get better. my husband finally agreed after all these years that i have to stop sacrificing my health and happiness. we love each other a lot, but i just can't with his homeland, so we'll have to find a middle ground. i hope you can do the same <3