Attempt number 3 to answer your question.

Your question now, is really hard for me to answer because.. I am no 100% sure about myself, and there times when I panic and question. My thinking pattern which I’ve adopted: 1. I have hard times to call myself trans, I do not like. I do not mind to call myself girl, though it is silly as my sex states I am boy. (So hence to transitioning) So.. I go from opposite. 2. I have enough evidence to myself that I am not cis male. (Private examples so not going to bring them up) 3. I do not like facial hair, body hair. Like just dealing with it or having it. I do not like certain features about the structure of my body. For example big hands, brow bridge. (I do however like some others as my eyes or hair (head) structure ⁾ Thinking about my primary sex characteristics tend to end up thinking about self harm or kmp state. Can carry on the list. Most of it however I can “avoid” by not thinking/keeping myself busy, so it is not as bad as it sounds. Voice. Enough said. 4. So judging on step 3, I make conclusion that if change them to way I like/way they do not bother me, I be.. happy is wrong word, I be not sad. 5. If everything from step 4 is accomplished then.. emm I be girl? 6. Hence for medical terms I adopt label trans women to myself, with the hope eventually to drop word trans.

Christ, this is third time I’ve typed up an answer and it still looks dumb af