thank you for this. they tried to kill me with clozapine years ago. I was able to quit the drug on my own when I realized what was going on. sadly I was taking it long enough to ruin my health. but now im better. Is really scary when you realize what they are trying to do to you and that knowledge is conveniently treated like part of the fictional illness they made you believe you had. I was supposed to be schizophrenic, I was told I could never be able to have normal life without clozapine. they reality is my life is now normal thanks to the fact that I left my parents home and quit the drug just in time to not be a fuckin vegetable like they wanted. No signs of schizophrenia, the only thing I have is PTSD from abuse I suffered in psych wards. What Ive learn with all this is that you need help from friends to be able to get out of this trap they got you in. In my case it was my conservative family that hated my progressive self that got me in the situation of being victimized and TORTURE by psychiatry in my teens. But I had such great friends, I always did and I was able to rely on them to scape. my now husband (who’s a scientist who works in bio engineering, and is anti-psychiatry too) was one of those friends that really helped me unconditionally. I wish you the best and that you can find light. Thank you for your post.