I need to vent -- hope it's okay to post this. I think it's hard for people who've never gone hungry to comprehend being afraid of that, but I have gone hungry before and it was terrifying. And reading more lately about meat plants shutting (only a few so far) has me frightened. I live in an area where meat of any kind has been very hard to get. Eggs and milk are rarely available. And chicken has not been available at all for weeks. At all. I'm an insulin dependent diabetic, so living on rice and beans isn't an option for me. Add to that that I'm on SS and disabled, so I have to order food. But I can no longer (due to quantity restrictions) order a month's worth of food at a time and so I now have to pay for two or three deliveries with separate fees for each one. And delivery fees are now doubled, diminishing the amount of money I have to buy food which has also gone way up in price. Being on SS, I have nowhere I can shift the money from.

I'm completely grateful that being on SS I have a stable income, even if it's not much, which means I actually have some ability to buy food if I can find it. And I do have a home (an apartment but it's reliable). I was terrified of getting the virus due to age and medical conditions, but I then I got it (not tested but pretty sure due to its unusual symptoms) and am living thru that so far. Knowing I am surviving it is one less thing to fear. But going hungry again is my greatest personal nightmare, and it's the part of this pandemic that is driving my anxiety right now.

Sorry to be negative. I only have one friend who's dealing with her own issues -- a mother with dementia, a brother who sponges off her, and other things -- and I'm avoiding talking to her about my fears. But I just had to tell someone. If I weren't still somewhat sick I'd be better able to fight these fears off.

Okay, done -- I'll put my tiny personal violin away. Please stay safe out there!