Ranting::

For me, when i was younger my parents were great. They loved my sisters and I but after a while I think their marriage failure was the source of all the problems. There is a bunch of things that they did that i never realized until recently how strongly I was affected. My dad worked from from about 8 to 7 monday through saturday (for the most part. He was a GM at a car dealership) My mother was always gone for some reason. I never really knew or cared where she was because we lived on a block where everyone had kids my age and I would always be out playing until dinner, or even after. Later on, starting around 10, I would have these friends that i would practically live at their house. Obviously i never really knew there was anything wrong with that, but I can see now the parents of my friends felt bad for me because i was in search for a family.

It quickly moved on from girls to boys. This was generally around the time girls started to become boy crazy and I found out i hated drama and found out boys had no drama. But when i was about 13 I lost my virginity and after that it was all over. This was when my parents got divorced and i never saw my dad. My mom was filling my head with terrible things about him so now being an emotional, single mother, 13 year old girl, i also hate my father. When my father started to come back into my life, I started to hang around the wrong people and started doing drugs (14) . At this point i had a terrible attitude towards my father because of my mothers influences. He was quite angry all the time too and turned to drinking, and when he drank he got abusive. This turned me away from my house even more and bought time into the "bad boy" stage + drugs which is obviously dumb. SOOO pretty much my life was ruined. Almost failed high school, was addicted to several drugs and hated everything until i met this guy (current boyfriend) who loves me and treats me right. Im 19 now, My drug use has stopped (over a year) i was in therapy, slowly pushing away from my mother and have resolved any issues with my father. I am proud to say i am sober, happy, and start college in August!