Weird question, but I've only heard discussion of this stuff in gender forums. First of all I am not FTM, I am FTNB questioning.

A lot of my dysphoria started when I finished puberty at age 7, and started getting my periods. At that time, treatment for central precocious puberty wasn't available for low information, low income families.

One thing that gave me a lot of issues was that other people were lanky and skinny, but I never had a growth spurt. This led to me becoming a lower weight adult through the adoption of paleo diets and gymcelling.

I was able to repress the puberty horror psychologically until everyone else I hung out with started puberty around 12-14. Their bodies changed, gender norms were enforced through the specter of sex, and it became obvious that I was never going to approach my parents' height, or be allowed to be de facto nonbinary anymore.

Now that I am in my 30s, is there a chance of recapturing my lost youth through using blockers or a low dose of T? I'm quite happy at the prospect of early menopause that we early puberty people will most likely experience.