I actually just turned in a request for psychological help. Not strictly because of this, it's been a long time coming. I've just pushed the thought of needing help to the side. Today at work I got real sad and just stared into the ether for an hour and then a co-worker literally came and said "Are you ok? I just wanted to make sure you're still alive" For context, I have type 1 diabetes and he thought I had went outside and fainted or something.

I sometimes joke around that I'm 15% aspergers, but I'm starting to think there might be some truth to that statement. I have trouble with understanding body language, social cues and eye contact among other things. I also don't like human touch for the most part. Probably haven't hugged my parents in 20 years even though I'd say we're pretty close.

It's like; how do you explain to a girl with words that you like her when she seems to be more of the feeling type. The sort of thing I have major troubles with. I don't want her to think I'm not interested just because I can't express it in the appropriate way. Hell, I don't even know if she's interested any more, but these are still issues that I feel needs to be addressed.

I went to see a psychologist maybe 1-2 years ago for depression and after 45min he literally shrugged and said "I don't know what to think". Not the kind of response you want from a mental healthcare professional is it.. Didn't exactly make me feel any better.