I know how that goes, I have no direction, Its more than just thinking positively, its a feeling of low motivation, emotional instability, fatigue...all I know to do is to make the most of where I am at the moment. But still in the back of my mind, I know it's suppose to be easier than this, that there is a medication, change in my habits or diet, something off with my internal systems. Keep searching for credible psychiatrist and useful information, pure and honest introspection. I just keep this thought deep inside, that there is a way to feel normal again, or even better than what I believe is my normal state of consciousness. Ive made some progress, but it's slow, and life always fires back, but I am going to continue to try to feel alive and happy again, it was there once, and so I have faith. I hope you find your answers, and Im sure you will, it is just that in this state of mind, I'm sure you understand, It is hard to be optimistic. All I know is that happiness is the result of happenings, and once those things happen(the things we need to happen), maybe we can build from them and eventually stabilize, and hold on to a feeling of joy and inspiration constantly, through constant efforts to improve our quality of life. Don't ever give up, I really do believe, somehow, someway, you and I can "succeed" and find our lasting happiness. I am going to try and get some sleep, I will continue to converse with you tomorrow, it seems like we are struggling with similar issues. Thank you for replying, it is good to know that someone else out there can understand how I feel, not that I want you to feel that way, but so that we can work together on finding ways to improve our quality of life, if you don't want to continue this conversation, I understand, if you do, I am all ears- Goodnight