My dad had committed suicide. My granma had committed suicide.

My mom was suicidal for sometime and attempted it couple of times.

I myself was suicidal for sometime. Gave a lot of thought to it but never made any attempts.

There is no one-size-fits-all answer to the question of what you can do to help. Every person has his/her own set of difficult circumstances that he finds difficult to overcome and finally gives up.

In my case, I just tried to come up with worst case scenario if I ever did such a thing and then think if it would be worth it. There were some people who were dependant on me, I had some responsibilities and if I gave up mid-way they would be left in a very difficult situation. Some of those people have done a lot for me and I wouldn't want them to suffer because of me. So why not carry on for some more years, take some more sh*t and try to finish whatever was expected of me. Over the years, I have also come to realise the pointlessness of everything. I mean, who cares what my life was like after couple of hundred years. I would just be another name, may not even be remembered by anyone. When you start thinking like that, your problems don't seem so serious at all. They are still problems that need to be taken care of but nothing to lose your life over. Just live your life and make the best out of everything. Sounds hackneyed, but this line of thought brought an immense sense of calm and relief in me. Of course, me having committing suicide also won't matter much after a couple of hundred years. But it would definitely cause a great deal of pain to some folks. I have seen the effect that suicide has on your near and dear ones and I just couldn't bring myself to make them relive the whole thing again.

I never shared all these stuffs with anyone, was never that kind of guy. That may have f*cked me up a little bit in the head but as far as my problems are concerned I have much more clarity now about how to face them. I won't go so far as to say that being suicidal brought that clarity but it did help me think about stuffs in a different way that I wouldn't have done otherwise.