SD was only 1.5 when I met her, and FH's relationship with BM was brief, only two or two and a half years I think? As of now, FH have been together longer than he and BM had been together, and yet I still turn sour when he talks about his old life with her and SD. Thankfully, there's very little for him to say honestly and he never really talks about it anymore because, well, I already know it all and he feel the need to share it.

Anyways, I struggle to imagine how I could cope with being with a man who had a long history before being with me. I really admire the SM/SD's on here who are with partners who were married for years and maybe even decades. Then maybe add on more than one stepkid? I don't think I'd be strong enough for that and I sometimes feel guilty. Sometimes FH will just mention a song he listened to a lot when SD was just a little baby, and I suddenly hate the song. I hate that he was listening to it while he was with his ex, and that it brings back fond memories he had during that time. Even though those memories aren't even about BM. I avoid the song like the plague and I feel like a petty idiot for doing so.