I felt like this for about 2 years feeling of having no emotions, i could get bullied and not give a fuck wouldnt make me depressed or angry i just felt so empty didnt care about anything or anyone felt like i was going to feel like this forever, tho at times depression would come back and it felt like that was the only thing i felt and wasnt a good time but listning to music always made things better temporarily, i just continued with my life until one day i met 2 people who basically changed my mental state of life for the better one male one female, the male always down to play cards, have a beer, hop online to play a few games, female was in my collage and after proabably 3 to 4 years of never smiling once we became friends she made me smile for the first time in ages made me feel happy again 4 years have passed and we are still friends to this day and continue to cheer eachother up, just want to say things get better you wont feel the void of empteyness forever no matter how long it feels like its been keep on pushing trough, a spark of happiness will light in you again weither its a passion or dream you have, to you meeting a new friend or listening to music to get you through your day im not the best with words but just saying that i think i have felt the way you have before and things got better for me so im optimistic things will get better for you too