First of all, I’d like to sincerely thank you for taking the time to post your thoughts on my situation. I do really appreciate it.

I would say the first and second red flags were the most frequent.

However, I need to to update you on something. Ever since I posted about my situation, I kept thinking nonstop about whether I was in the wrong too, or even I was the one who pushed him to that level. This post was the very first time I express in detail about what happened in the relationship, and I’m not sure what to feel or think anymore.

I was dissatisfied and unhappy with the relationship, mostly because he expressed his love with words more than he did with actions. I can confidently say I offered so much and supported him in ways I thought I would never do for anyone.

However, I cannot stop thinking about the possibility that he might have ended up this way because of my dissatisfaction with his lack of “actions”. I should admit that I started many arguments throughout the relationship just because I felt that I’m putting much more effort in the relationship than he did.

That being said, what if I was the one to turn him this way? What if all the things I wrote about him were actually reactions to how I treated him because of me being dissatisfied? I’m not saying I was the one to blame for being dissatisfied, but most of the times I couldn’t actually say what was bothering me because I felt it would insult him or make him feel less of a man if I expressed what was actually bothering me, so I had this habit of turning anything into an argument instead of actually talking about the real thing.

What if he’s just a kind and sweet person who was so fed up with the “negativity” I’m projecting on him? Yet, I also ask myself, what if his abuse was so strong to the point I still doubt myself like I am now?

I seriously cannot seem to know what to think anymore.