I'm exactly the same, the fear of blushing runs my life. If I have to talk to a stranger, especially a female, for more than a couple seconds I feel the hotness in my face coming on until I'm eventually bright red and fighting off a panic attack. This ruined my last job for me and has me unemployed and living in fear to ever work again now. It was so bad at my last job that I would have to get high before work every day to keep myself from blushing, I literally got addicted to opioids trying to control my blushing and social anxiety. Days when I didn't have anything it was a nightmare, I would blush talking to almost every customer, blush when co-workers talked to me, it was awful. It's been like this forever, in school I would blush if I didn't know the answer to a question I was asked, I'd blush when girls talked to me, a couple teachers even laughed out loud at me and asked why I was so red, it was humiliating. I think those experiences traumatized me and made it even harder for me to get past it. The only way I've found that makes me come across as normal is getting high, and I'm sure over the years I've fooled a lot of people into thinking I'm normal, but the truth is I was just doped up. But the people who worked with me and went to school with me know the real, awkward me. Being a 24 year old guy makes it even worse, because people expect you to be past that awkward teenager phase by now, so it's just humiliating. I stopped doing drugs, but I've found that I can't bring myself to go out in public anymore, I've become a hermit because I have no security blanket anymore. I know the only way to get over it is to get therapy, but I'm a major procrastinator, and I'm still afraid to face my fears. Therapy really is the only good way to deal with it, and knowing that you're not alone helps a little bit.