I’m going to preface this to state I’m a victim of child rape. I have very conflicting thoughts regarding this question. I do overall not support the death penalty. However, had my bio father been convicted I’d have given anything for him to receive it. I want him dead. Had he been convicted and put to death it would have saved other girls from him. I have lifelong issues from what he did to me and I’m sure the other children he preyed upon do too. II quite literally dream about his death.

I am now 35 years old and still won’t register my address because I’m scared he will find me. His abuse was so rampant that my step sister had to install a lock on her door she could use at night. Shes in her 40’s now and the last time she was in a relationship was in her teens she’s so traumatized. My bio sister developed a severe eating disorder and can’t talk about what he did to us. The singular actions he took destroyed my childhood, destroyed my siblings, and continues to interfere with my life as an adult. I turned to alcohol to cope and struggle with it still. He broke something in me that will never fully recover. I will carry his actions for the rest of my life.

But while I deeply wish he’d die, it’s so hard for me to be ok with it happening as a punishment. Yes it would have saved others. But II struggle to justify his death due to his actions despite that. I simultaneously hope he lives a long life suffering and also hope he will die . Would him receiving the death penalty heal me in anyway? No. I’d be able to be less paranoid about him at best. But fuck would I love nothing more than seeing him helpless and alone knowing he’s about to die for what he did.