By forcing myself to have what was supposed to be a one night stand (re-met him later and dated, but unrelated). For me, it was about forcing myself to do all of the things I knew I wanted but could never do if I didn't start somewhere. Also masturbated a lot, well before my first time. Parents were kinda fundie (except my education) but my hormones disagreed, didn't really have a choice unless I wanted to go bonkers and cum from the bumps on the way to school from the bus ride alone. I believe this helped me a lot, esp to build up to that first time. This was prob the only reason I was set least a little ready. Hard to tell nature vs nurture, I know I'm pretty out there sexually but sometimes I wonder if it's because of my upbringing.

Sumbliminated sexual desire with a lot of my friends, had somewhat lesbian romantic relationships at the time. Was very tortured and depraved (catholic school from k- highschool). Had a classic catholic school college experience. Was very depressed, am bisexual and high sex drive but parents were never supportive of anything outside of their beliefs. Have a very wonderful sex life now, my current so is actually the guy who I had my first with. We had time in between each other and dated around, but it was always him. We joke about a lot of the past, but have an amazing sex life now.