You seem angry and upset. I know how that feels. The anger, at least in my case, is a reaction to the shoddy way of life presented to us by the dominant paradigm. It is indeed a shitty worthless degrading and pointless way of life and you are actually to be commended for not accepting it in the usual sheep-like way.
Do you know why you are either unable or unwilling to conform to an profoundly sick society in spite of having been exposed to the same pro-conformity propaganda from birth as the rest of us?
Assuming you are rejecting all the horrible debasing life options that have been presented to you, do you have a better way of life in mind?
When I was your age, I sold heroin for a living and I was just as angry and resentful as you which is why I chose this way of life. Your post could've easily been written by that younger me. (It really is quite eloquent if one doesn't respond to it as if it were a personal attack rather than a reflection of the frustration and anguish that should come naturally to those forced to live in a world where all choices open to you are fucked as fucked can be.
Your judgement of humanity as it is at this time seems well-considered and accurate. This is vastly unfortunate but there it is.
Last night while walking across the frozen tundra where I have chosen to live to avoid all possible contact with others of my kind, I smoked and started thinking about what life is for.
I thought about our cave-dwelling ancestors and how they lived. They never had to ask themselves what to do today. It was obvious: We are going to hunt for food and then eat it. After that, we are going to do whatever pleases us most and that's it. What a sane and enviable life that seems to be compared to what people do now. No one was trivialized and degraded by being forced to earn their keep in demoralizing and degrading ways the way people do today.
Nevertheless, I urge you not to give in. Judging from your writing style, it doesn't seem likely that you are going to accept the way things are, get a safe corporate job, a fat spouse and make a bunch of fat retarded children. And this gives me hope.
Our kind is racing towards self-extinction and this may not be a bad thing. Any hope we have of survival rests with those, like yourself, who cannot for will not conform and be satisfied with shit. I sincerely wish you the best and hope you create a life for yourself that is worth living even if you have to do it single-handedly.