My wife is in denial. I had to get a secret life insurance policy. I can't even fill out a DNR without her going full Karen on me and everyone around. In my situation I couldn't leave her because she would be worse off. I tried to get her more self sufficient and able to live without me, but she just won't accept I won't be around forever. The worst part is knowing my kids will be stuck taking care of her once I'm gone. I've literally begged her to get a job and start building up to live without me, but she just won't. Anytime I even try to bring it up she will do anything to stop the conversation and if I keep pushing she gets really angry. It's been 10 years since I was diagnosed with MS and she still won't talk about it. At least she doesn't push me to do unnecessary stuff anymore like going shopping and stuff. I think the limping and needing to sit often makes it real to her.

I'm still working 70 hrs a week to support us while my body is failing drastically, and I can't take anything for it or I won't be able to work my job. It's really past the point that I should be working here, but I just act like it's fine because there is no other option. I have a few more years (3) to push through till all the kids are adults, so I'll make it that long at least. I didn't think I'd make it, but getting closer to my end goal and think I can now. I hate who I am now, and feel lazy when I can't physically get up and do what she wants.