Today is one of those days for me, a lot lower than I normally am. I’m at work right now every second is misery I do not want to be here, I haven’t eaten today. I want to quit working and say fuck life and relapse on hard drugs. I just want to go home and sleep. A ton of social anxiety right now too. The silver lining is that I do not work anymore this week after today I just gotta make it through 5 more hours.

We will feel better, I do have a lot going for me right now, 3 months ago I was homeless. And in that short amount of time i now have an apartment a car a job and rebuilding relationship with family, all of that is cool and all but the thing that sucks is no amount of money / materialistic / relationships can fix my depression. Overall though I am not in a constant severe depression like I have been the last half decade, which gives me hope.