I suffer from depression and it makes being in a relationship extremely difficult for me. Always feel like I'm not good for anyone and I don't deserved to be loved. I feel like I'd just hold any girl back because I'm so fucked up inside. Well, there was this girl that I've liked since High School, she liked me for years too.. Only girl to like me that much btw.. Eventually we started dating and stayed together for about a month before I started pushing her away to protect her from me. I didn't want to get too far into the relationship so it wouldn't hurt her so bad. It killed me inside to let her go. My best friend/brother just got dumped by his girlfriend around that time. After I pushed her away he kind of just swooped in and started bangin her. It made me fall deeper into depression and started having suicidal thoughts. Had to admit myself into psychiatric hospital to prevent that. It still fucks with my head real bad. Might sound dumb to you all but I can't help it. Sometimes I wish I never met either of them.