It's not about finances, his mom is dying and it's hard on him and also the holidays...I am fully aware these are lame excuses but I'm just being honest! I am okay with breaking up but I'm hesitant because this feels like a really fucked up time for it if that makes sense. So I've done well recently with trying to kinda shove it back mentally and even see if he is willing to do a milestone activity to prove himself such as doing individual therapy. Of course though, I'm feeling the consequences of that because my anxiety is up so high all the time and I don't deserve to have to lie to him about something I want to share like my feelings. I really feel you though thank you