She was 18, I was 20 (we're now a year older). It was two guys before me. She says I'm her third, and those were just two one night stands at the beginning of her freshman year. She says she was a virgin till she started college but I don't know if I believe her. You know how the rule is multiply her number by 3 and you're closer to the truth?

The confession came willingly after a while of her not wanting to tell me about it. I knew about both times from the beginning, but I didn't know the details. I could see why she didn't want to tell me at first, she seemed ashamed or embarrassed.

She's a pretty devoted GF otherwise, I mean she's willingly driven 3 hours to see me 5 times over the summer (I've only done it twice, after her begging me). She indulges my kinks and fetishes and is extremely sweet. She told me she loved me first. She's very submissive. She calls me a lot more than I call her. She facetimes me and asks me "what do you want to see me do". I never feel like I'm chasing her anymore (though I did feel that way at the beginning) and now I feel like she's chasing me.

So while it definitely hurts and sometimes I get disgusted to the point that I consider breaking up with her, the other stuff she does for me is so good that I feel like I should let it go. But if she does anything questionable again at this point I think I'd have to ghost her.