I really miss my best friend and biggest crush. We've been friends for about 15 years, and had a blowup a year ago after he started acting really weird with me and practically forcing me to have sex with him over and over again. We'd always been pretty casual about sex with each other, but it just didn't feel right this time. Anyway, we had a really dumb argument, I asked him to leave, and he hasn't talked to me since. I found out soon after that he is bipolar. So there I was googling "bipolar" and our 15 years of ups and slightlydowns made sense.

Now he's at home 1k miles away and won't leave the house, talk on the phone, check his email, or do anything but play video games. I went to visit and he told me to get out. I feel like it's kinda my fault and i miss him so much.