ermm.. I just noticed this line.. Well, I'll like to say something to you vorcazm, sometimes life goes beyond ours. I don't know you personally, but I know you got a lot of people loving you.. I think you need to do same for yourself by giving yourself the best love you can get. take yourself out and make yourself very happy.. don't worry about the disappointments. it's all part of life, see them as facts that makes life fun and interesting. That's how I handle that feeling my dear.. and trust me, I'm not suicidal no more. I hope this makes a lil sense. or better I hope you were joking about being suicidal... be well, we've got work to do here :-)