Hey I wish you the best. My bf is in your position right now. He was cheated on by two serious exes and he just recently told me how hard it is fighting that mental battle of paranoia, fear, and trust. I think it must be a normal reaction but I’m not sure how to help the situation. I think it’s mainly fear bc you’re taking a big risk that you know very well could hurt you.

But I also think love (family love, romantic love, friend love, self love) is the only thing that makes life worth living. (For me at least) And that if you feel love for someone and want to be with them, you should do yourself the favor of giving it a shot in whatever capacity you are able to.