It gets better. You will find someone who makes it effortless to be with. You will find a way to be on your own and actually like it. You will be happy someday, you should be happy right now, because you're learning and that's never a bad thing. See this as the next step to your new life, you have to make it clear to yourself that she is behind you. It's okay to be sad and miserable. Just keep trying. You're going to do great, make time for yourself and don't be too hard on yourself. Make it a routine to be a sweet heart to yourself and compliment yourself even if you feel like you don't deserve those compliments. (sort of like a fake it until you make it mindset) after awhile it will come naturally. Feel free to pm me. I just recently stopped thinking about my ex, and I was just sitting there giggling to myself because I'm happy I'm done with it and there's so much more to see and do now. My whole outlook has changed and things are worlds different in the best kind of way. (I was kind of obsessed and couldn't get her out of my head). But time heals all wounds. If you get anxiety or panic attacks I'd say breathing exercises helped me out the best. Stay strong dude ❤