The way I used to block out those thoughts was by self medicating with cannabis but I had to get it through the darknet because I don't have any social connections (paradoxically one of the main reasons I used it was to cope with loneliness). However because of my current job I can't risk being caught ordering illicit substances online. It's ironic that the people who'd benefit most from legalisation are often the ones who'd have the most difficulty buying cannabis illegaly. The only methods of dealing with suicidal thoughts I have available to me are antidepressants which make me feel nauseous and numb all the time or alcohol and painkillers which are obviously dangerous and unhealthy.