I'm not.

And you're right, it does depend on the drug. But if something makes me not choke in front of a person in a normal situation like I'm standing in front of an audience, then maybe I need to take that thing. Sometimes you're too damaged to be able to function like a human being in the most mundane situations, and sometimes the pills, the powders, the alcohol, they help. They help you be normal, they make you feel like your past doesn't have to define you for the rest of your life. Some people need it, because they don't have much else. Sober me talks like he's scared because he's being yelled at by his parents for doing something wrong. That shouldn't be my tone of voice as an adult. And I swear to god I can't help it, it's subconscious. But two pills in the morning and I can talk like a human being for a bit. Do you think I shouldn't have that privilege? I wasn't arguing with you, this video just made me cry and brought out some shit in me so I just thought I'd say what I felt.