That's the thing though, she so desperately wants them here, but they just refuse.

I think when the time comes I'll tell my dad, he's been here since the beginning and is the reason I'm here now. He calls and asks about her multiple times a day (they're both partially deaf, so they can't really talk over the phone to each other), but he can't physically be here right now.

I'll let him call his brothers, if he chooses, but I really don't know that when the time comes I'll be able to behave reasonably. Weather they show up or not is on them, but I do hope they'll continue to be selfish, because they don't deserve redemption at the last second. That's mean of me, I know, but if I can put my life on hold and travel halfway across the country to be here for her, why can't they come see her after work, on their way home? Or visit on weekends when they don't work? Or even call her once in a while?

Honestly the more I think about it, the more I see that maybe having them around at the end would just be harder on her. I know if it were me, and I had all these things I wanted to say or do, but couldn't, it'd be torture. I don't want to put her through that, but again, I also want to do my best to respect all of her wishes, and if she still wants them there, I'll do my best to get them there.