Hey there friend,
I wanted to reach out and let you know that everything will be OK. Like you, I’m an undergrad looking at pursuing med school. I feel like I can’t imagine myself pursuing another career- and will continually apply until I get in.
Things will work out. I am a non-traditional student, and I’ve battled with already dropping out of a university due a lack a maturity at the time. My GPA was roughly a 2.0/4 at the time- and I actually got dismissed from the university.
I took time, learned about myself- and came back stronger than ever. Now I’m a 3.9/4 cGPA student with excellent academics- however my past still haunts me.
What I’ve learnt along my journey I can summarize in one simple sentence. “You can’t rush the process.”
Life is about a journey, and med school acceptance boards understand that. They want applicants that have a particular narrative that illustrates growth, progress, and development even when presented with adversity.
Do not overreach because you’re fearful on how medical school boards will view your application. Do what felts RIGHT to you. If you’re insanely stressed and preoccupied with burdens- you will not excel.
I wish you the best, and I know you’ll make the best decision given your circumstances. Only you will be able to evaluate the eventual pros and cons.
As some points to help, I) Reach out to your department about financial assistance. They’re often very helpful and can point you in the correct direction. Expect several emails back and forth before you get a lead. II) Reach out to OSAP about disability assistance. Often the Paul Menton Center(PMC) can assist you with this interaction. This can score you 4K over 8 months which is 500$ a month extra just to be you. III) Look for a more substantial job. Federal government is a great gig that can assist you through school. IV) Reach out to Health Services and seek counseling. I always thought therapy was a joke, and for the weak. Not true- they’re as helpful as you are receptive. Give it a try.
Good luck, and feel free to PM me with any questions and I’ll do my best to respond.
All the best.