First off this is an unhealthy cycle you need to break. Being that you grew up on seeing abusive behavior you are mistakenly it for him loving you and just letting it slide. Ignoring it and just trying to make everything okay again to a tolerable level. You need to go to the police. If you don’t want to do that you need to ask him to leave. This is not a game, you ordering food and walking past him is not going to change anything. Again NOT a game. This is your life at stake. Just by your post I can tell you don’t really want to be with him and he’s not making you happy so why stay with him? Who cares if he finds another girl to be with good riddens to them. Make him leave if he doesn’t call the police and never look back. Last thing you want is to be stuck or dead. Your choice. Leave.