the thing is, all of this, her making me feel guilty is new. she was perfect before, she was understanding and would have rather died than me feel guilty. she's not always been like this. i don't know what changed.

i just don't want to do it now, when we havent talked in a few days and we won't even be able to talk about it. i just want to be able to have a conversation about it, instead of it being an abrupt thing for her. i don't know. i think i'm going to wait until she messages me again to bring it up.

i have a boyfriend too, he's fantastic and is everything i could ask for. so was she. i will try to leave her, or at least talk to her about it. thank you.