I believe it was fairly early for me...

In 5th grade I was already into metal music, violent movies, and my mom only spoke to us with her yelling because of my father choosing alcohol at a bar instead of being home with us.

I never saw my parents kiss, no intimacy shown ever... night after night my brother and I would listen to my mom wait up for my dad to come home so she could yell and he would back... the things I heard, they stuck with me.

Naturally I became rebellious, my mom used 4 letter words at us all the time. Dad would feel guilty and buy our forgiveness..

I never really cared about anything from then on, I skipped school starting in 7th grade shortly before my parents inevitable separation.. my mom god bless her, just had so much resentment that she was only there to cook dinner and such... she was a good mother, not great.. My father was a hard working good man, but not a great father either.

I was more mature than any of my friends at such a young age. They all had real family's and I hated them for it

It's affected me personality wise for many years, I showed no emotion about anything to anyone.. Drugs became my escape at 15. I was taking acid and smoking a lot of weed.

Now at 33, I have a woman I love who brought her daughter into my life. I try to be a good parent but I have no idea what that is sometimes. I come home every night, I may not give the most attention at times but I do cherish what I have now. It'd the only family experience I have had.

My mom and dad are better now, my mom is alone and sits at home but my dad takes care of her.. He had guilt and he's done a lot to try and fix things. But I never resented my father that much, he's one of my best friends and I trust him more then anyone alive. My mom and I are just not on the same page, she's better but still angry inside and bitter towards anyone it seems. Always making negative comments about someone just like when I was younger... She's got a lot of medical issues, probably not a lot of time left.... I feel guilty I don't spend time with her, I will miss her when she's gone and regret that I didn't try more. My Dad is closing in on retirement and we talk daily... I feel like I gave him a pass because my mom was always just so angry and I felt bad for him... But he made her like that and that still gets to me.