I was teasing and didn't word it very well. I was implying that I'm sure you are and that you know you could good at other things too if you chose to do it. When you work so hard and become so specialized it is like well damn what else could I have done? I spent a few minutes wishing I would have applied to be an astronaut yesterday. It was fleeting and didn't change my overall satisfaction of my path.

I have far more conversations with my buddies on our hobbies and potential for making money on side projects and fantasizing about other professions than strategizing on what we are actually doing.

My brother the other day was musing that he should have been a doctor. I was like lol you are a few months from being CPA certified. He's in England right now on business and i was thinking fuck i should have been an accountant

Study on aesthetics I get, income I get, the science I get, the surgery I get.

I'm calling bullshit on the prestige. That's a game you can't win. You can never get high enough. If you finish the residency then you haven't done the fellowship. If you did the fellowship then you haven't published enough. Then you haven't taught. Then you didn't teach at Ivy. At the very top as far as i understand is a table of lifelong academics totally hating each other.

I'm just comparing my experiences to yours not criticizing. Ultimately we are have chose very similar paths and have the same ambitions.

But man I have not felt any more powerful . The opposite in fact. I feel very limited by licensing and the role we have to play in our specialties. I talk to people about medicine all the time off the clock and they don't ask what my credentials are if they don't already know me. I have realized that trying to defend myself my telling them my education or experience or degrees it is more likely to a negative impact.

Man this reminded me of a story. A have this lesbian friend. She is beautiful and brilliant and she is making establishing herself well in corporate in Ohio. But she can't let go of her successful time in new york in her. Multiple times we would be tripping our asses of on the back porch, feeling awesome and enjoying the morning and she would start going on a rant about new york "like yo in ny we could tripping and walking around an no one would bother us."

I was like what the hell do you think we are doing right now? Like what life you are talking about is exactly the same as we are living right now jsut we are looking at trees and not concrete. I love her dude but god damn it's every time i have to try to snap her out of it