I too have just gone through a breakup, or should i say going through it because it still feels so raw and horrible. And im pretty sure I've cried more times on public this past week than i did when i was a baby. I was opening my presents from my family today looking at their family faces with a lump in my throat trying to hold back the tears. Christmas has always been such a happy special time for me but this year it was ruined. My advice is this: If you are scares about sending the letter because you are scares of rejection then hold onto it for a bit longer. Keep reminding yourself that you have that letter and that you are free to send it anytime. You can keep.reminding yourself that you haven't given up just yet and there is still the chance to fight this and try and make things right, but you need to hold off until after the holidays at least. Christmas is the worst time to feel hurt.. Wait until the christmas songs stop playing and the silly billy atmosphere fades away... Try to make yourself a plan B for 2017 for if she does reject you... Try to hold off for as long as you can, work on yourself, build yourself up a bit, give yourself a pep talk every night about how strong you are and how strong you could be. Hold off until the pain is less raw, and then send the letter. It is important to prepare yourself as much as you possibly can in case she throws it back in your face. Plus think of it this way: if you send it now and she rejects it you are gonna hurt more than if you send it on a couple months and she rejects it. Time rely does do some good after a break up. I think the holidays just always amplify your emotions a bit. Good luck and keep us posted