I just created a reddit account while aimlessly scrolling just to post here and say it feels amazing. I had a pretty good childhood, nothing compared to what some of you have went through and I am so sorry it breaks my heart to read some of your posts. But being in college and dealing with financial issues and school work did start to stress me out and my anxiety was out of control. I just started to feel like I didn't want to live anymore. I just kind of felt myself giving up on everything. That there was really no point. I had a amazing family & friends, a great social life, many boys who wanted to be in relationships with me and such but I just felt like I wanted to be done. One morning I just kinda woke up in my apartment and started googling the fastest and easiest way to kill myself. I left my cell phone in my room and walked into my kitchen, and sat down on the floor with a bottle of vodka and some pill bottles and just stared at the blinking microwave clock for probably 2 hours and just thought about everything. I didn't go through with it. I finally ended up getting up putting everything away and have not spoke about that with anyone until now. But that morning changed me. Every day after that I started appreciating everything a little more.

It's been 7 months since that day and I am the happiest I have ever been in my life. I still deal with typical loads of stress and anxiety but I can honestly say I love my life and I am so happy to wake up every morning. I appreciate every little thing that comes my way. My story isn't anything compared to most of yours. Just a college girl who dealt with some depression. But I just wanted to say I am happy I am still here today and proud of myself for focusing on the positives now and not all the negatives in life. I am excited for my future and where life will take me. Not too sure if this post will get read, but have a good day all of you here on Reddit, you're all important to somebody never forget that :)