Trying to stay positive but weird things keep popping in my head, for some reason i can't stop thinking about how after my prom a guy i knew that i made a couple of jokes about sucking his dick on the way back suddenly got way into it when we arrived, and how, i kept trying to leave and play it off as a joke but ended up feeling kind of pressured, i dont think he did it on purpose but i started feeling like he's going to get more and more assertive with his requests and i wanted him to stop but i didnt want to make him mad and have him stop being my friend, so i ended up doing it in a hidden part of the street. When i got home after that i felt gross and sad, felt horrible for the whole week after it and i still get a bad feeling when i think about it, but i don't get why, i mean, i chose to do it wether i wanted to or not, and its not like i couldn't just refuse. I don't get it. We haven't talked since.