That sounds rough, and I'm sorry you're going through this. I just wanted to say that I hear you. I feel like I've been through enough similar events and situations that you just as well could have been reading from my story!

You sound good though. You're a good writer. You explained the situation and your feelings very articulately. I would think that's gotta help, both practically and theraputically. You seem to have your head-together in a sense. You seem to know that times aren't always this tense, and you seem like you have your priorities straight, you seem somewhat balanced and like you're keeping it together as best you can. Is that true? (I don't know, I could be wrong. ) Most of all, it seems really positive and healthy and hopeful when you say you "...look forward to a new life...". Seems like a good focus.

I don't know your family situation, or whether you'll ever reconcile with any of them or not. You know better than me whether it even makes sense or is safe to try or not. But I will say that 1) you're still very young, so a lot can happen, a lot can change, potentially. 2) family can surprise you. Not always, but sometimes. 3) A lot of people are write-offs, but excluding highly-abusive situations, generally family is not the first to go on that list. 4) For me, when I did start a process that eventually led to reconnecting, it was through (more emotionally neutral) friends and family members (the ones I got along with more consistently).

You seem to have life experience and seem to know what you want on some level, and seem somewhat intuitive, so my guess is that you'll keep moving forward towards what you want, and if you need help, you'll know who to ask. I don't know why I wrote all of this, just kind of happened. ...oh well, good luck to you.