Life is... Good atm. Future is gonna blow up I think.
Career... I have to decide my career soon(I'm 18) and I have no idea what to do. Biggest problem.
Sexual problems... Don't know if I'm bi or straight... Or maybe, gay.
Mental issues... I apparantly have a " personality disorder" whatever the fuck that is. The psychologist asked if I'm hearing voices. Well why don't you just call me crazy then? This is just the top... Lots of mental issues and all the doctors give different answers. One said I'm not depressed and that my thoughts are nothing compared to a person with kidney failure. Tried to kill myself with the meds he gave. Second doc just referred me to another. Third doc gave me meds but after 2 months they just made me worse than better and he didn't care, busy with his phone calls and short times. Fourth was just one meeting and he suggested meds but I wasn't gonna take meds after doc no. 3. All four were psychiatrists. Now no. 5 is a psychologist and she says I have a personality disorder and again, I'm not depressed. I guess I'm not.
Health issues... Seizures. Lots of them. Mild, I guess. On meds now.
Relationship... I have a girlfriend and its really confusing and I need her help to get through this but she has her own issues.
Family & friends... Broken relationships and I just harm and disappoint everyone.
TL;DR : To a 18yr old, on a scale of 1 to whatever the post said(sorry, forgot), I think it's "I'll destroy my life and kill myself. Or the world will destroy my life while I'm sitting on my ass and then I'll kill myself."
I won't kill myself. I'm just a teen, teens are just looking for attention. That's what I honestly believe. I know it's wrong but I don't see anyone proving me wrong. Instead all I see is people saying its for attention blah blah.
In all seriousness... I won't kill myself. Don't have the guts and with rich parents, I can just distract for years. I will survive this...but also, I'll hurt everyone who ever cared for me and that'll haunt me till the next big problem and it'll get another paragraph too in "friends & family".
But...yeah life's good ATM. Got games, whatever I want. I just need a career direction. A goal.
What an attention seeking brat, right? Is that what you are thinking?
/rant
(Sorry, Reddit... I wanted to rant and didn't wanna make a new post and feel like I am just looking for upvotes. Just ignore if this isn't what the askreddit thread was about.)