A couple of months ago I found out my girlfriend of a year and a half was having some really inappropriate relationships online, including “friends” telling her if she ever left me they should hook up, etc. Didn’t she wake me up one morning crying and telling me she wasn’t sure she if we were right for each other anymore, to later that day make plans with a couple of people.

I didn’t know about any of this until a few months later. She started accusing me of cheating, I read her discord, found out all sorts of really hurtful stuff that I couldn’t get past. Calling me a bad father, telling her friends she didn’t really care about me, stuff like that.

All the while telling me she loves me and wants to get married. I had just added her to my medical insurance to help pay for her medications too.

The thing is, I know I’m better off. Still just sad that someone I loved and stood by through everything (she’s a writer, I supported her entirely) could/would do something like that. The shitty feeling of “I’m not good enough” keeps slipping into my head and as much as I try to fight it, it’s really hard sometimes.

She also took our puppy which we both raised. even when I reminded her how much my son loves that dog, she wouldn’t feel comfortable sharing him. I don’t hate her. BPD is an awful mental disorder to have, but she still crossed some major boundaries that I knew I was going to try and let happen if I didn’t end it.

Doesn’t help that I met a girl who just wanted a FWB relationship who informed me after sleeping together she’s kind of sort of seeing someone.