I was having problems with my mom, and a long time friend who was about 10 years older that I had met on World of Warcraft invited me to fly out and stay with her until things cooled off. I had a thing for her in the past and she knew that, but I was in a great relationship with my best friend at the time. The older woman knew this, and my girlfriend wasn't exactly thrilled but knew it would help me.
After a day in airports and on planes I finally land, and a hour later we got to her place. She told me that the guest room wasn't exactly ready yet, and I didn't question it, I was too tired. She offers me her bed and asks if I'm okay with sharing a bed for the night. It thought it was a little weird, but it was fine. I passed out right away, woke up in the middle of the night or closer to the morning, and she was on top of me, with me inside her. I shoved her off and snapped... I didn't get violent or anything, but I locked myself in the guest room for over a week. We talked it over, I was mad but I let it go... two weeks later I wake up and she is trying to blow me in my sleep... I lose it again, and for the rest of the 2 MONTHS I was stuck on the other side of the country I basically just ignored her in her own place. We talked here and there, but it was never the same.
I think less than 2 days after I got home to MA, I broke all contact with her, haven't spoken since, and that was almost 4 years ago now.
Everyone I've told has been either sympathetic (two girls and two guy friends) or they laughed at me, or called me a wimp or a bitch or an assortment of other things.
Sure it's not the same as someone who got raped by a teacher or something when they were in elementary or middle school, but it still fucked with me, and I still don't like physical contact with other people. It ruined the best relationship I'd had and I haven't had one since... I just don't trust people as much, and the hole from my ex cheating on me hasn't really closed up either.
If the tables had been turned and I raped that woman twice in 2 months I'd be in jail still.