Before I began abusing ANY other substance (alcohol, weed, pills, etc) I was introduced to "JWH" or "Fake Weed." I began smoking this around my senior yr of highschool thanks to some poor influences, I struggled with heavy addiction to this for 2 and a half years. At the beginning of my smoking "career" I took a TINY hit at my parents house while they were gone. I began making my way to my room before collapsing outside of my doorway in an instant. (I now recognize I must have been seizing or having a stroke.) I somehow made my way to my bed where I began to die. I can't say what was truly happening because I am not a scientist nor am I spiritual (this experience actually numbed me to all spirituality and has caused me severe issues since.) When I finally made my way to my room it was as if I got hit by a flash bang in a video game, my ears were ringing and I saw nothing but a vast expanse of white nothingness. There was no one else there, nothing else there. Just me and my understanding that I was about to die. I have absolutely no idea how long I was out for, but it couldn't have been more than 0-3 hours because my parents were not home when I finally came to. This experience caused me to experience what I think is ego death (in a very bad way.) I have recently quit self medicating with marijuana bc of a job opportunity coming up and I am now actually taking the time to confront what I experienced that day. I have almost died before but those instances were more so "waking up" when I was resuciated (as in it was like I randomly fell asleep and was jolted awake.) This experience was very different, I knew what had happened. I will not say that it was heaven, hell, or purgatory bc I still do not know what I personally think happened. All I know is that I saw a vast expanse of absolutely nothing, and I was entirely alone. No feeling of calm, no feeling of love, just nothingness. Perhaps it was my brain fighting to keep me alive in a last ditch attempt by flooding me with DMT etc. Perhaps it was heaven. I still do not know and that is why I think I have been self medicating with pot, I don't really know how to face what I experienced. No one resuscitated me, I came to on my own or (who knows perhaps by some spiritual beings will, a god or otherwise.) All I know is I have not felt like a human being since, I feel like nothing... I still heavily feel empathy and sympathy, but I do not feel like a person. Maybe that is just ego death.