Sorry, I wrote this comment earlier and then deleted it. But I think I want it to stay up.

One of my parent said they'd kill themselves if one of their kid ended up gay. So, you can imagine how that makes me feels. It's such an abusive burden to put on a person, I don't want to be responsible for someone else's wellbeing. And it's so fucked up, like it's such a horrible thing that I'd rather did than have you be this way.

I don't want to break their heart and get disowned. I'm anxious all the time. Had a mental breakdown this summer and couldn't tell my family about it, because they 'd ask the questions and I'd have to tell them why ... So I just sit there, being anxious some days, wanting to die on others.

I'm bi and lately I've been doubting it (I think that's common in the bi-cycle?) and it's freaking me out because of my familial situation. I used to be confident in it and take comfort from the fact that I like men. At least I could be "normal" and not get alienated from my family. But now that I'm doubting myself, I'm so scared.

Sorry. I'll probably delete this later.