Posting this on my throwaway bc my boyfriend and my friends know my main and this is uh... something I really don't want them casually stumbling across.

When I was 16/17 I was groomed by a man much much older than me who wanted me to keep our relationship a secret. He forced me to send him explicit pictures and then used them to blackmail me into sending him more. This "relationship" lasted until I was 19, of which I assume he lost interest because I was getting older.

I don't regret the fact it happened more so because i was a minor and I didn't know any better and I was at a massive power disadvantage. Blaming myself for that would do nothing but destroy my mental health. I've gotten over that hurdle with a lot of therapy.

What i regret is not saying anything to anyone at the time. Even a friend. I wish i just opened my mouth to someone. Not even about what he was making me do but about the fact he existed in my life. I wish I never kept it a secret because I now know it would have ended sooner if I had because even the statement "17 year old havibg relations with a 30something man" is enough to raise alarm bells to anyone.