I haven't been with anyone ever since, so I can't answer your question in whole. But I do feel a massive sense of guilt whenever I start befriending other women. I also feel as if I'm gonna get "in trouble" when my ex finds out. It's bizarre, it's as if she's become a babysitter that's always watching me.

And the past couple months, I've gotten to the point where I find the thought of sex to be disgusting. The thought of it feels really dirty. I keep thinking about how my ex must be throwing herself at people, and the thought of sex just grosses me out now. It's all fucked with my head big time.

I'm thinking that people like us might actually need professional help, at least for a bit. Not sure what the solution is lol