Hi marleydylanmortimer, I can definitely sympathize with you in regards to the way you are feeling. I went on a three month leave from my job for depression, and when the time came for me to head back to work, I completely blew it off and now I find myself jobless.
I was prescribed Lexapro 10mg, but it made me feel similar in many ways to how you were describing feeling. I had terrible insomnia though, I would stay up and watch movies and television all day and night or be glued to my computer chair gaming (still have a problem with the computer addiction hehe). My relationships also were beginning to unravel due to sheer apathy at having to extricate myself from my recluse hovel ( apartment) After the first week, I think I had convinced myself that the medicine was really working in my favor, and as time passed my quality of life starting slipping drastically. I felt noone would give a shit about my problems, since they weren't me or I was already convinced that their opinions would serve to piss me off at the world more and further destroy relationships with friends and family. Personal and professional life had reached it's absolute lowest point.
This all culminated in me walking into my closet and looping a belt around my neck which in turn then caused my entire shelf of clothing and metal to fall on top of me LOL. At that point I actually started laughing which transitioned into me breaking down into tears, which I hadn't done since my grandmother passed away several years back. I'm talking full on waterworks. At that time I realized how big of a mistake I could have made, which I know sounds like cliche statement of the millennium when you talk about this topic.
The most important thing to do right now is to find someone to talk to, and if there is no one close to your locale, I would be happy to talk with you via PM whenever you feel like you are having one of those days.
Also, have you considered looking into your schools resources for dealing with depression? First mission is to make sure you don't fall drastically behind in school. Talk to your teachers or professors. Let them know what is going on confidentially. I obviously do not know them, but I know they are usually in that career because they enjoy teaching and inspiring younger generations and 99% of professors I had in college were always available to talk about any issues that I was having. My college years ended long before I started taking any medication, which I take none now but I made appointments with a licensed counselor for free through my college five to six times to open up to a neutral party when I felt my parents, girlfriend, friends either wouldn't understand or tell me it's all in my head. I ALREADY KNEW THAT LOL
One last piece of advice. Be sure to do your own research if you decide to get onto an SSRI inhibitor. It may very well be a imbalance of seratonin that is causing your mood or even low testosterone. SSRI inhibitors are nothing to trifle with, however, they work for a ton of people. They just didn't work for me. When I quit I had the pleasure of experiencing "brain zaps" which is an awesome side effect of cold turkey quitting Lexapro.
To end, sorry for going on such a long-winded spiel. Just want you to know that I know the hidden internal pain of depression and you have a friend here for you to chat. Just do me a favor and try to wean yourself off those sleeping pills. Anyways, yah, here for you dude/dudette.