I've been really depressed and down the past week or so and I don't know why. It blows though. I've just been not wanting to do ANYTHING and every time someone brings up a new task for me to try to accomplish I get really nervous and instantly resort to a state of doing nothing. Like, my s/o brought up running errands and suddenly I was too tired to make dinner like I was about to do. I'm 99% sure it's just general anxiety and exhaustion, but it sucks and I'm sick of it. This is diet related because I'm trying to cut out processed foods to see if it helps me mentally and physically, but I'm not sure it will. On the plus side, I get to see a sleep doctor soon, something that has LITERALLY been overdue since I was a child, so maybe I can start sleeping better, which will help my weight loss.

Everything is just making me grumpy and sad, but it's kid of funny because I'm here like "Well, I might as well be miserable on a diet instead of miserable gaining weight, because when I'm not miserable anymore I'll have a body i want instead of a body I don't."

The worst fucking motivation ahaha