It almost felt as though you were talking about me. I've been there so many times, and it's so infuriating. The worst part is that there is no simple answer. If you break a leg, your leg is broken. Mental health is so much more complicated. I know life is rough right now, and every time you do something wrong, it beats you further and further into the ground. I can't and won't tell you things will get better, I'm not going to sugar coat it. Life with mental illness is never easy. It never will be. The only way it's going to get better is if you snap out of the downward spiral. Take the momentum of falling deeper and deeper and use it to slingshot your way back to the top. It may not be easy, but life can be enjoyable. Every time you feel that anger, anxiety, sadness, or frustration, just stop what you are doing. Stop completely. Clear your mind of all thoughts. If the thoughts won't stop flowing, force a new thought in. It will feel weird, it will feel forced, but that's because it's working. When overwhelmed, I often make impulse decisions. Nearly every phone I've ever broken was due to me smashing it against my head, a wall, a desk, a floor, you name it. If I had just stopped, for just a single second, I wouldn't have lost so many phones. This is a lot for one comment, but I just had to say something. I hate knowing there are others that feel this way, who struggle with these issues, but it is strangely comforting. I'd really like to keep talking about it if you'd be up for it as well. Shoot me a pm if that's the case. Either way, please stay strong. Stop and smell the roses. Sounds like cheesey advice, but there's nothing better for someone who can't stop analyzing everything than analyzing ONE thing. Just one. Take things one step at a time. Sending my love and good vibes.