Trigger warning:

I'm not religious but nofap gives me dreams i can only associate with something dark or satanic. Of course i don't believe in any of that stuff (atheist), but my dreams say otherwise. When i first reached 2 weeks, i dreamed about a very old lady i know personally. She was talking to me fine, then she started to seduce me. I was like "what the hell" trying to push her off but she was unusually strong and wouldn't get off my lap. She then lifts her skit and forces me to have intercourse while laughing and then tells me (in the most evil tone) "Isn't this what you wanted?!!!". I jolted awake (no nocturnal emission) and out of sheer fear started praying. I was afraid in my own bedroom.

I relapsed a few days later. My current attempt. It'll be a week soon. And again the weird dreams started. Last night, i dreamed i was trying to perform autofellatio. But i wasn't in control (like 3rd person). My body forced itself to bend over until my spinal cord started snapping and the noise was disturbing. As soon as i reached it, i jolted awake (no emissions).

Either I'm subconsciously a very disturbed person, or there's something (or someone) else lurking in the background when i attempt to abstain. The atheist side of me says it's the former, but my gut tells me it's the latter.