What does YOUR depression feel like?

Reading through this thread is motivating me to talk to my doctor. I've embarrassingly glossed over it with him before but I'm so apprehensive about medication and forget making regular appointments with a therapist... It just seems so unreachable to feel any different and I have such an addictive personality... I know I'm chronically manic, there's no happy or content, only exhaustion, anxiety, spurts of "HOLY CRAP I LOVE EVERYTHING SO FUCKING MUCH I'M CRYING WHO SLIPPED ME DRUGS!?" euphoria, then back to numbing fog and feeling like lukewarm, watered down chicken broth. I know I am, my amazing husband and family knows I am, but reading these posts, seeing in words a picture of me... why aren't I helping myself?!?

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